This chapter of type for me has yet to be concluded

when will it be concluded is what I’m asking myself. 🤔

Ill find out no doubt. Or I won’t. 

My shift couldn’t come with conversation. It wasn’t really planned, but looking back I think it was. 

Those monkeys arguing in the brain set off interstate to see who wins. 

The life that had become us was tidy, easy, content and well, let’s say good overall.

what was niggling inside I still didn’t realise. Now I do. 

When you love something so dear, you have to set it free

 My internal everything was on fire and still kindles. 

Writing out my advanced health care plan must have ignited and stored the dreams for what’s behind.

When is behind?

Will behind come?

who will be left behind?

Is it normal and natural to be so bloody selfless to the point of absolute destruction so the obvious outcomes can be seen in time. 

For me. Yes.

This person whom is my heart. My heart was beating purely for this man. 

It always will. Nothing or nobody can ever replace him or what his twenty four year journey offered me. NOTHING 

SEE HIS HEART BEATING THE SAME DRUM SETTLE’S MY FIRE 

I know at this stage of the fire, all only see damage and broken wood

In time many will hopefully realise and reflect somehow at what people will do and sacrifice for their love. Any parent or dedicated partner will 

My mind wanted him with the most precious people in the world. My children and grand children. 

They ARE his world. And he is theirs. 

This can’t be done softly. 

Well, maybe it can. 

I just couldn’t get things to roll that way and just went with the punches. 

Returning back to the same seat that created the journey, I realised how powerful we can be if we have to be

Not knowing myself what was happening g at the time. Thinking and feeling sick from such ripped open hearts

IN TIME… LIFE WILL SHOW WHY THIS HAPPENED. 

THAT TIME OF HAPPINESS AND AWE IS TO COME FOR ALL

I LOVE YOU ALL ♥️

AND THATS WHY.