Man, woman and child  in a suit that doesn’t fit

Man, woman and child  in a suit that doesn’t fit

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DEFEAT… Now don’t cringe. ‘Defeat comes with humiliation and pride.  It comes with lessons it holds error and wisdom

Poem by Khalil Gibran.

DEFEAT. BY KAHLIL GIBRAN


DEFEAT… MY DEFEAT

My solitude and my Aloofness

You are dearer to me than a thousand triumphs,

And sweeter to my heart than all world glory.


DEFEAT…MY DEFEAT

My self knowledge and my defiance,

Through you I know that I am yet young and swift of foot,

And not to be trapped by withering laurels,

And In you I have found aloneness,

And the joy of being shunned and scorned.


DEFEAT…MY DEFEAT

My shining sword and shield,

In your eyes I have read

That to be enthroned is to be enslaved,

And to be understood is to be levelled down,

And to be grasped is but to reach one’s fullness,

And like a ripe fruit to fall and be consumed


DEFEAT…MY DEFEAT

My bold companion

You shall hear my songs and my cries and my silences,

And none but you shall speak to me of the beatings of wings,

And the urges of the seas,

And the mountains that burn in the night,

And you alone shall climb my steep and rocky soul


DEFEAT…MY DEFEAT

My deathless courage

You and I shall laugh together with the storm,

And together we shall dig graves for all that die in us

And we shall stand in the sun with a will,

And

WE SHALL BE DANGEROUS 


🙏🏽

Anger
Anger

THE FIVE STAGES OF GRIEF..

Learning more specifically that grief isn’t something we consume after losing o loved one through death. Or passed on for the appealing.

Grief is loss. Loss for me is not death of a loved one. It’s the slow death of myself through disease. Yet, this is now my minor grief.

‘My grief is losing my normal. My everyday normal that is changing pace and all that were around me. 

Losing my partner that was the person who guided me, moulded me, obviously my best friend, the one that levelled my head oh so gracefully and with loving purpose. This man is 14 years my senior. His life lessons were shared with me and I can sit here and say

HE BOUGHT OUT THE BEST IN ME

THE BEST I COULD BE

Without this sounding strange, controlling or in any way negative, he was my father, my master, my part of me that was missing.


Would it be easier to cope with if he had passed away ?  Maybe something I will never know… He is still alive, breathing and healthier than me and many many others his age. 

Here’s where most will be confused or see me as strange.


OUR DEPARTURE…..

‘Being diagnosed initially with MS or multiple sclerosis, life was pretty normal with a few minor changes and areas that I struggled to keep up with.

This here could go into a 4000 word essay. Just this part of my disease diagnosis, changes, navigating life changes together and other very small impacts. These were not or ever bad impacts though. These were all good solid decisions that saw our life change for the better. Moving interstate to the sunny state of Australia is something I truly wish we did when the children were young. I’m assuming that if this had happened, they would still be closer by, especially now the family has grown so beautifully large with attaining 6 beautiful grandchildren

Grandchildren  was my next part in life that I just couldn’t wait for. It was constantly discussed and with it I encouraged both my daughters to start young. Don’t let life’s structure impact your decisions as to “when is the right time” to have children. There is never a right time if we follow a status quo. 

Do it when the body decides too.